Today I have been thinking a lot about how we live life and never expect to have these types of things happen. Who am I kidding? This is life, with its bumps, bruises, and insane roller coaster rides. Mind you, this week I feel I am on that roller coaster without a stinking seat belt. I have whiplash; I can't eat, I am angry, I can't sleep, I tear up all day long. Then I found this quote by Orson F. Whitney:
“No pain that we suffer, no trial that we experience is wasted. It ministers to our education, to the development of such qualities as patience, faith, fortitude and humility. All that we suffer and all that we endure, especially when we endure it patiently, builds up our characters, purifies our hearts, expands our souls, and makes us more tender and charitable, more worthy to be called the children of God . . . and it is through sorrow and suffering, toil and tribulation, that we gain the education that we come here to acquire and which will make us more like our Father and Mother in heaven.”
So for today, I found comfort; for today I am just expecting this ride to continue, and I will build a seat belt out of duct tape if necessary. I will not give up, and I will fight with everything I have to help Corban in his journey with Lymphoma.
Today I explained to him that he is going to have really cool pictures taken of the entire inside of his body when he gets his PET/CT scan. I told him he would have an I.V. He took it like a champ, but is a little nervous about the I.V. He was thrilled about the machine he gets to go in. It is even happening on his birthday, and he is just a trooper. His final request of the day is that we get to watch two movies for his birthday fun. Then Monday he will have a bone marrow sample taken in two parts of his hip. We did not get into detail, but he knows that this is so the doctors can solve the mystery of Corban's ulcerated side.
It is strange to not just tell him, but I think it is good to wait until we can see the entire picture and know what stage the lymphoma is in. It has also given Todd and me the time to take in all that we are digesting about having this happen to our sweet blue-eyed boy and our entire family. So if you're reading this, you too have decided to take this journey with the Larsen family. Thank you for your love and support. Thank you for the prayers, and thank you for being willing to suffer with those who suffer. I never thought I would be on this end of the suffering, but since we are here, we choose to live to love and to fight.
Today I explained to him that he is going to have really cool pictures taken of the entire inside of his body when he gets his PET/CT scan. I told him he would have an I.V. He took it like a champ, but is a little nervous about the I.V. He was thrilled about the machine he gets to go in. It is even happening on his birthday, and he is just a trooper. His final request of the day is that we get to watch two movies for his birthday fun. Then Monday he will have a bone marrow sample taken in two parts of his hip. We did not get into detail, but he knows that this is so the doctors can solve the mystery of Corban's ulcerated side.
It is strange to not just tell him, but I think it is good to wait until we can see the entire picture and know what stage the lymphoma is in. It has also given Todd and me the time to take in all that we are digesting about having this happen to our sweet blue-eyed boy and our entire family. So if you're reading this, you too have decided to take this journey with the Larsen family. Thank you for your love and support. Thank you for the prayers, and thank you for being willing to suffer with those who suffer. I never thought I would be on this end of the suffering, but since we are here, we choose to live to love and to fight.
you're amazing, Angela!
ReplyDeleteMy sweet twinner! I love you and I love your faith, strength and courage. I know one thing for sure! Corban is so lucky to have a MOM like you to go through this yuck with! I know that there will be many angels you do not see.... Sunday in church I read a quote to the kids that said if you could see you would see a chariot of angels coming to aid you as fast as they could to aid you. I know they will be there Angela, ones you can see, and ones you cannot. love u annie
ReplyDeleteYou know we are here for you! I hope I can be a strength to you and your family. You are such a strength to me even in your hard times! You have angels round about you to bear you up so don't forget to lean on them! :-)
ReplyDeleteI found the quote I promised!
ReplyDelete"When disappointment and discouragement strike and they will, you remember and never forget, that if your eyes could be opened you would see horses and chariots of fire as far as the eye could see, riding at reckless speed to come to your protection. They will always be there, these are the armies of heaven in defense of Abraham's seed."
Jeffrey R. Holland
Corban, Angela & Todd, and all the other trouble makers...I just found out yesterday about Corban, as we just returned from vacation. Love is at the core of the Gospel and you all truly epitomize LOVE. Keri wants to do anything to help, please call her for ANYTHING, she is minding your request for "time" but desperately wants to help. Tell Corban that Maren loves him, and talks of him almost constantly, Mia also. We are going to drop-in on Monday [30 secs MAX ;) ], we have some things for Mr. Blue Eyes. We love you guys!
ReplyDeleteThat quote is beautiful and so very true. Please know your church and ward family are here for you, pray for you and fast for you and your wonderful family. You are in our thoughts and prayers at every moment of the day and we will continue to pray and fast for strenght to get your family through his tough battle.
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